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baseline_disposition
amy nada it said in the text by Rhetorius_the_Egyptian that if Saturn is the Ruler of the Part of Fortune is in the 2nd house, the native is nekropsychous, or "dead-spirited". that was bad news, going all the way back to the Dark Ages. also means that the native ("I") ought not take any good moods for granted... which is why i drink coffee and try to greet the dawn, i suppose. 100404
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hsg It is like every day is my first day on Earth. I could see how that might bother some people. But, I'm here to stay anew each day. 100405
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minnesota_chris I've been thinking about this lately. Sometimes I get in a bad mood, and often this mood has nothing to do with my environment, it's just my baseline disposition.

As a result I get some bad_brain thoughts. Some signs:

-feel like deleting most of the friends_list
-no music sounds good
-dreaming of massacres
-craving food from frustration
-feel like telling a boss to go to hell
-feeling like I have no real friends

even knowing that these thoughts exist, and writing them down, gives me a little bit of separation, a little bit of power. I think I'm going to start tracking them. Who knows, maybe it's just something I'm eating.
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niska no. it's probably just something you're realizing... 100407