| sorry_for_myself | ||
| . | I've fucked my life up. When I look back, I had so much potential, and I've fucking wasted it. I don't have the energy to throw myself back into it. My joints ache, they've been telling me for years that I can't go on doing this job much longer. My mind is shot, I can't muster the energy any more. I feel suicidal sometimes - more as an idle thought than anything else. I've been addicted to porn for all my life, that's turned me into a pervert. Most of the time I've got nothing but emptiness and regret inside me. I've had so many shots that I've half-heartedly taken. Time's running out for me to make the life I could have had. I suck. We should never have stayed together. The longer it goes on the more I ache for more from you. I'm so unhappy. | 200219 |
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| unhinged |
i wanna wallow in it for just a second dangerous vacuum |
200219 |