really_sad
u24
I
used
to
be
wide
eyed
with
possibilities
and
now
....
it
’s
just
hard
to
muster
that
enthusiasm
and
self
belief
any
more
.
200824
...
unhinged
.
(
like
depressives
do
,
i
am
isolating
myself
)
200827
...
IGG
It
feels
sometimes
like
the
real
,
mundane
world
has
wormed
its
way
inside
,
draining
the
life
and
passion
from
your
soul
and
making
your
dreams
tired
.
Like
when
the
lights
come
up
at
the
end
of
a
wild
,
magical
night
at
a
club
and
you
see
the
unicorns
are
just
sweaty
people
with
too
-wide
eyes
and
melted
makeup
,
and
the
mystery
and
excitement
is
gone
.
The
bright
lights
make
everything
flat
and
dull
and
there
is
a
sense
that
you
were
a
fool
to
believe
things
could
be
magical
and
exciting
.
I
find
it
difficult
too
,
especially
this
year
.
You
are
not
alone
and
I
think
it
just
takes
a
bit
of
a
change
to
help
you
realise
that
the
dreams
and
ideas
are
not
dead
.
You
are
not
starting
out
again
from
scratch
but
simply
starting
a
new
chapter
with
all
of
the
experience
you've
gained.
There
is
something
that
will
spark
you
again
,
just
find
the
change
you
need
.
Sending
love
to
you
lovely
blatherskites
.
201105
...
unhinged
i
watched
the
city
that
shaped
my
early
adolescence
die
at
the
hands
of
billionaire
capitalism
but
radical
lingering
roots
of
this
place
(
not
from
the
1990s
but
the
1890s!!!)
have
me
a
taste
for
something
besides
flannel shirts doc_martens
and
guitar
feedback
i
know
the
power
of
unions
and
picket
lines
and
anarchists
clashing
with
cops
the
power
of
women
before
we
could
vote
(
the
free
speech
fights
of
the
wwi
era
)
i
sprouted
my
karmic
seeds
of
radical
discontent
in
the
place
that
killed
kurt
...my_middle_name_is_faith
means
something
different
now
.
such
is
life
i
have
always
mourned
the
passing
of
the
old
but
decades
of
loss
have
taught
me
to
find
the
beauty
of
what
comes
after
the
rain
(
how
easy
the
smile
is
twisted
to
tears
but
the_goddess_speaks
and
the
more
i
listen
i
find
the
reverse
to
also
be
true
tears
can
turn
to
smiles
if
i
let_them
)
201106
