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scuzz I will always remember dogs jumping fences, monsters chasing from my mom's house all the way to my dad's, inflateable people popping out of wine barrels, and the owl that watched me from the top of the pyramid in my driveway. The feeling of pain in a dream is the oddest, most unexplainable thing; almost the numbing feeling of a loss of blood flow to a limb, but with a certain...flavor. Waking up every night at the side of my bed, I remember needing empathy as my six year old lungs choked into the blackened air. The dots I saw by focusing on the midnight air in my room never let me pack my bags and follow them. 030609
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endless desire it seems that every four years i have the same kind of nightmare--one where i realize i am dreaming. it is a feeling i could never explain or comprehend. the amount of control i had within the dream was terrify and exciting simultaneously.

when i was four i experienced this for the first time. the details of the dream, or rather, nightmare, have long since been forgotten, but the basic plot will remain vivid in my mind for years to come. along with the colours. the bright red of the house. and the wolf. i was standing outside of the house, but for some reason, in my dream, i viewed myself from within it. a mouse approached me. his head was nearly spinning as he paced back and forth upon the windowsill. he warned me that the wolf would becoming any moment now and that i had to flee the red house immediately. but i shook my head and in reply told him not to worry. that this was merely a dream. that there was nothing to fear. the next thing i knew, the wolf was there. he dragged me into the empty red house. and he began rip my body to shreds and devour it. (pleasant eh?) but i was completely calm. i really did not care at all. my only thought was, i am going to wake up in a few minutes and this will all go away. it's funny. what if this life is all a nightmare? and i could just say. . .don't worry ellyn, you are just going to wake up soon, and it will all be over.
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niska uh.... i had really bad dreams about dogs chasing me - even jumping fences to get me...

but more recently, it was the two of them. we all sat at a restaurant table. they got along. they became good friends. they compared their experiences with me. in front of me. what a shit dream.

my favorite part of living is the sleeping part. i like the movies that play in my mind - it's always a double feature, but i'm never sure what's on. and it's pretty exciting.

this time, it was a suspense triller. well, i wasn't thrilled, but the suspense certainly got me...
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god i had a nightmare about a wolf. it ate my parents. it was the first time i ever sleepwalked. 030609
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niska *gasp*

wolves are even scarier than dogs, in the night...
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