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fierce_patience
misstree the other day i held my breath
after a contest had ended,
just to see how i could do.
my lungs ached, but it was distant,
the whole of my meat balanced
and cupped lightly by my being.

it was such an intentional stillness,
and from one so prone to movement as i,
but i did it because i could, because
it was Push.

i am still holding my breath,
motionless as a mirror, waiting.
i am locked in a vault, and
while my hunger grows,
i own the burning of my lungs.

the first deep breath will be so sweet.
i just have to keep waiting.
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misstree i slam the phone booth door as i exit,
staring at the spiraling sign.
"thank you," i mutter, handing back the card.
the lady, old, blind, almost mythical,
grabs my wrist.

"wait."

i pause, confused. a bike passes, and i recognize
the person, the bag, the purpose for the pause.
i haven't time to thank her as i run off
to pursue the path barely glimpsed,
but she knows. she smiles as she walks away.

(gets all mannified. run_lola_run.)
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