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daxle I'm guessing you're talking about being at college. What you said stuck me because it reminded me very much of how I felt my first year at college.
What I learned was this: Being completely wrapped up in a relationship, though I was very in love with the person, denied me the experience of getting to know a new place and new people. It's scary to have everything be so new, and it feels easier to hide in someone you love. Eventually though, I found myself very dissatisfied and not really knowing why. I had been at davis for a whole year and had no real friends. When you don't have a life outside of a relationship, you don't have much of anything to offer a relationship, so eventually that degrades as well and you are left with nothing.
Now is the time to start knowing who you are, what you want, what you like to do, what you are about. Get closer to making yourself someone that you like.
If this doesn't resonate with you, forgive me for projecting. If nothing else, I found it useful for myself to look back, so thanks for the inspiration.
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pete it doesn't resonate me, but finds a reflection in a friend who is made distance by the suffocating presence of his girlfriend, and her distant by his likewise suffocating presence. yet they are slowly opening, after two years of closed contacts. 050926