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Dear you,
I wanted to thank you for the warnings, and advice you hinted at when we were talking. You saw the possibilities that might arise from this post-.
Obviously I'm in a really stupid place emotionally, mixed up and hurt. Very much a frail human, looking for an anchor to something less cold. And you knew this. You've done this. You've been here. I have too but it's been so very long, that I had forgotten how stupid you get right afterward.
I finally came to the realization that your worries might be founded, when I realized that for some strange reason, I wasn't self examining like I usually do. When I tried, I found exactly what you thought I'd find.
It was obvious to you, no doubt. To me, it was not. Having been hurt so deeply, that I cannot stand to face my pain. I can't bear to examine myself right now, because knowing what a raw wound looks like..well..I'm not a big fan of carnage.
It is ontological shock that has overcome me because of this, no better time to have friends that have my back.
Thanks for having my back. I love you so much, do0d.
Your brother always,
steadfast_and_true,
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