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not a new dream the way you laugh
and the fact that you'll never, ever understand me.
you, my child, just haven't got the capacity to.

oh what a shame.




or not.
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not a new dream wait - that was a lie too.

shitfuck.
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Zeb the cigarettes 030602
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pointman i think you just dont like me. or just am jealous of my diminished capacity to be like you. or understand you. i cant really really be jealous of you or even mad. how can a line be jealous of a cube or a point of a line? help me if you can 030603
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not a new dream funny how things turn.

you do understand me. more than i could ever fucking dream up.
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endless desire pointman-
a line can be jealous of a cube
because a cube is made of lines
and a point can be jealous of a line
because it you put several points together,
side by side, you can make a line
but i think the cube should be jealous of the point,
because without a point
the cube has no name.
its just a nameless stupid cube.
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little wonder i don't like that you don't talk to me anymore.

that you seem to not care if we have the same conversation every night, which really isn't a conversation at all. and then i start thinking that you just don't care. but then you do some stupid little thing that drags me right back into it, and i can't seem to pull my stubborn self away.
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Jane Doe your new hairstyle. your truck. the way you are playing the "too cool for words" game... FUCK YOU. You know I wan't you still, so why do you have to flaunt it? Was I just your fuck bag?

"You were my first, So was I, made love and then you cried... remember when."

I hate how no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, I can't forget about you. Maybe when you move away. I only think about you twice I day. When I'm awake, and when I'm asleep. Is it normal to still be loving you five months after we ended? You were my one, and only. Why?!?! Why is your baseball career more important? Did I not mean that much to you? A year and a half and, just like that? I hate you because, even though I'm "together" with someone else, I'm not being honest with him, because I still love you.

I hate seeing your truck the most, though.
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