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so fucking lost
for i am
afriad
of what is unfolding
in my head
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lizzy if i knew...
the words...
that could keep your sanity...
i would spill them here...
onto this blue page....
if i knew the words
to let you know
you'll survive...
i'd whisper them reassuringly in your ear...
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pete i had a glimpse of the words last night. i fell asleep with about 75 pages left in god emperor of dune. i saw them clearly, i heard them, i experienced them. they existed in two parts. but when i awoke to the phone ringing only there essence remained. they are close to me, so far from me. 040517