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emjem Why this endless self-deprecation? What does it take for you to realize that are worth it? You keep telling yourself that all you do is fuck things up and complicate everything...take a pretty painting and add too much to it until it's beyond finished, it's ruined. But you don't. You keep treading through the world certain you are destroying everything in your path, certain that you are good for nothing, useless, ignoring the people who are watching you, waiting, expectantly, for you to notice that all they can do is love you. 031101
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Death of a Rose isn't like a midnight fog...it has called the moving van and has purchased a new home, your home. 031101
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irony you're so stupid! why don't you like yourself, dumbass? 031101
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anne-girl how to escape?
"don't worry, be happy"?
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log burning fire ever dumbening frustration:where are you red brother? we miss your german ass. 050726
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unhinged as scared as i am to be unhinged_in_seattle without even a place to live, this cloud hanging over me here is becoming too dense to navigate.


it happened again yesterday; on an otherwise sunny day there were grey rainclouds over the block i was walking on. when i exited the drugstore, rain drops fell on my head.

but when i looked around, in every other direction, there was sun. i couldn't help but smirk. it wasn't the first time someone decided to rain on my parade.

(things only got worse from there)
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