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| re_alisma |
somewhere along the way i think i might have actually cancelled this fall's elected fake child. although it's also possible that i didn't. it's really hard to tell when they are so fake. william the first will be 15 this year. jeannie amaryllis will be 5. they are both doing just fine, and they make me feel like i'm not circling the drain or something. but why add a lucas? why do elected children in the first place? it's just a very dear desire. of course it seems dire, but really it's a dear one. if i don't deserve life-improvements, i suppose i don't deserve them. silly me for even thinking up such personal dreams and dramas, and well, life-improvements. ugh. lucas nizir. slow down and breathe is always the advice that i need. seriously. i needed a real career to focus me. too late now. right? right? bueller? oh, right breathe, i'm not about to die imminently. end neurotic fake child focus story |
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