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niska there are a few things i think about you.

for instance:

when i see you, i want to smile. & when i see you smile, i feel it.

when i hear you, i feel good. your voice makes me happy.

when i touch you, i want to faint. you drive me crazy.

when you're there, beside me... i can't breathe. i can't think. i can only feel good.

i know i hide it well.

i wish i didn't have to.
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Ouroboros that makes me feel better. Few now. Very few actually work. 080526
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. you should know about me

I'm emotionally erratic, but appear insultingly stoic on the exterior.

you will experience every range of emotion in an uncomfortable space of time.

you may wish you had never met me,
you may feel defiled, angry and lied to.

I won't lie to you, nor will I ever love you for anything other than selfish reasons.
If you can love me as selfishly, then we'll get along spendidly, otherwise, I will feel either bored or trapped.

I can't tell you it will be worth it.


but when you really need me, there will be no pussy-footing.
I'll jump into a glacier lake naked for you; don't think i haven't before.

I already love you, but there area few things
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