never_thought_it_could_get_this_bad
Norm
Or
,
I
don't
think
I
did
...
but
then
again
I
don't
remember
last
night
or
the
night
before
.
020310
...
Mateo
I
feel
like
ive
walked
for
miles
and
my
whole
body
is
a
splinter
of
pain
.
But
Im
on
my
way
up
.
020311
...
Syrope
before
,
everytime
i
got
even
close
to
this
utterly
despondent
,
SOMETHING
would
go
right
.
there
were
people
who
could
be
there
for
me
.
oh
but
wait
...i
gave
those
people
up
to
be
with
you
,
because
you
were
supposed
to
be
there
for
me
.
ohh
silly
me
:)
o
my
prophetic
soul
...how_could_i_have_been_so_stupid?
020312
...
somebody
and
yet
it
has
and
I
fear
it
will
get
worce
still
.
funny
thing
is
when
I
couldent
stand
you
,
when
I
couldent
even
bear
to
look
@
you
let
alone
hear
your
voice
and
truly
unhappy
(
yes
this
has
happined
more
then
once
)
I
gritted
my
teeth
and
I
still
listened
to
you
while
giveing
back
rubs
and
still
said
kind
words
to
you
,
you
dident
know
bc
I
didn't
want
to
hurt
you
,
and
yet
the
first
time
it
happins
to
you
it's
as
though
you
intentionaly
go
out
of
your
way
to
cause
me
pain
-
I've
never
been
this
crule
to
you
,
even
when
I
was
in
angwish
and
couldent
stand
your
mear exzistance
let
alone
be
in
the
same
room
with
you
yet
I'd
still
smile
for
you
and
ride
it
out
untill
the
bucking
bull
of
negativeaty wore
it's
self
out
-
what
I'm
saying
is
Why
won't
you
do
the
same
for
me
?
031208
...
Syrope
i
cant
help
it
that
i
learned
how
to
love
myself
somewhere
along
the
way
031209
