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hollow_wounds
Zion liar on every same street,
watching all the complaining,
strait following, driving us to the next stop, still open in line to the only line.

interupted and bound.

they don't seem to know the hits or misses they mean. the right or the wrong their parents let them slide with. he grabs her by the arm, meaning to hold her back, she slaps him against the cheek drawing back.

it's all the same when the time is carried on past them,

it's all the wrong, when they both can't do it all again.

it's all one touch,
and all one less word.

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unhinged scab picking

if you never heal
then
you never forget



my knees had little pink hollows on them where i would keep peeling off the scabs, until the new pink skin would make it harder for the wounds to scab over. my mother would notice, admonish, eventually get heated when she realized her chastising wasn't stopping me. i was morbidly fascinated with the pain and the way my body worked. the way there was a slight delay from the moment i ripped the scab off until the new blood flowed to the top. the way the scabs got thicker, the longer it took to stop the bleeding the more i picked them off.

was that a precursor to the scar_garden? was my mother surprised when the neighbor called her about the rumors that i was cutting myself?



giving_and_receiving
i've always been stronger at the giving
there are hollows in my heart
where you used to be
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unhinged . 191205