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.x. there is such an angry dark hole

i will never be all you care for |and i breathe each hour
|paying heavy penance for that involuntary sin

that your own heart|just as barren soil
lacks the basic components for growth and nurturing.
|Love cannot thrive in that desiccated shell of yours|

i adored your every breath,
longed to float on your every word

depressed that you won't love me and perceive the empathy within me
my heart has heaved through all the stages of loss and grief
that you hate me, that you doubt your professed forever’ness
feeling tortured, disbelief & misery riddled with pitiful but inevitable attempts at
bargaining for a better outcomethe burning rage ensuing

i do not know which of us to be sorrier for.
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