blather
hey_hun_hinged
h|h|h tell_me_about
selflessness
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unhinged (let me get back to you on this one)

at this

passtervana

time of year
i find myself rather depressed
and losing ground at work

time to meditate on
rebirth
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unhinged do you want me to tell you about it as a buddhist or as a person? 110422
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unhinged http://mingkok.buddhistdoor.com/en/news/d/2401

the_fundamental_interconnectedness_of_all_things

indra's_net
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unhinged bodhisattva_vow


i was seriously considering taking vows; a really awesome teacher is going to be the preceptor at my center, but once again i've come up with excuses. i guess i've been making my own vows forever so i'm not quite sure why i'm so afraid of the formal ones. other than the obvious reason that my father actively shunned organized religion.

but i also realized recently that i have been for as long as i can remember sad at other peoples' pain, wanted to help others. the bodhisattva_vow doesn't seem ridiculous or fantastical to me. it seems like the ideal righteous point of this human life.

i would stay
forever
to turn it all into
one shining moment



we affect those around us; the visual metaphor of links of chain bound together is more than apt. some links are direct; others have a few separations. if we want our world to be better, we just have to do better. then links we don't even see or touch begin to be affected. such is the nature of karma, or so have i heard.


right_speech
right_action
right_livelihood


(not very direct, just a beginning. i've been smoking a lot lately cause of the cold and the pain so my brain is pretty rambly. and right now my new neighbors are being pretty loud and drunk and obnoxious. bah. fuzzy fuzzy distractions)
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hsg Hinge, yeah that'll do. I was wondering your take more than others' and you answered that. seAms we both concluded th at some point compassion becomes somewhat objective.. like it's the only way things can work. 110422
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unhinged cultivate_compassion



it seems to be the only way my heart will work anyways. i have always been happiest when working to make others happy.
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hsg remember_you're_a_person_too 110423
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unhinged my shambhala_training this past weekend and my periodic browsing through blather reminded me of this page



i had some glimmers
of meditative experience this weekend
that felt like selflessness

the instruction:
let everything go
and be with the reality
of the present moment

(a lot of these things
are hard for me to put words on
at first;
some of them after years
have formulated into thoughts
words
poems)


the_space_between
thoughts
breaths
only serves to highlight
each thing as it arises
the dot in space
every dot
brings with it
an opportunity for warriorship

to_trust
in the fact
that the universe has already
given me
everything i need
everything is already right where i need it
and i only need to take the
time_and_space
to see it
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unhinged .


the universe has already given me everything i need


but sometimes i have to go out and find it
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unhinged the universe has already given me everything i need

white_tara reminds me
even a pandemic


might be just what i needed
(the universe giving me the courage to change what i didn't seem to be able to under previous circumstances)
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