never_felt_these_tears
pushpins
ive
never
felt
tears
like
these
.
sinking
into
my
flesh
and
burning
with
memories
resurfacing
.
its
the
forgotten
words
that
change
my
mind
and
make
me
hurt
.
my
missed
opportunity
,
when
all
i
could
have
done
went
down
the
drain
with
my
purple
hair
dye
.
when
i
walked
close
enough
to
smell
his
clothes
and
ignored
you
in
your
obvious
superior
solitude
.
I
didn't
think
you
were
capable
of
jealousy
.
I
would
have
gladly
been
with
you
,
if
i
felt
worthy
of
such
a
wonderful
guy
.
But
i
was
lower
than
you
,
and
your
realization
was
spiked
with
bitter
envy
. echos
stab
me
and
make
me
bleed
my
tears
.
washt hem
down
the
drain
with
my
purple
hair
dye
.
wash
them
down
with
my
tainted
blind
eyesight.
I
miss
you
,
as
cliched
as
it
is
,
i
miss
you
and
I
have
never
felt
these
tears
before
.
alien
to
my
selfish
nature
.
020109
...
someone w/green eyes
hrmmm.
interesting
........
020227
...
Syrope
it
doesnt
make
sense
-
i
ball
up
my
fists
and
set
my
jaw
and
refuse
to
cry
,
i
concentrate
and
keep
all
emotion
shoved
to
the
edges
of
my
mind
...but
then
i
step
back
and
look
at
myself
and
i
laugh
,
i
look
so
funny
.
all
of
a
sudden
there
are
tears
...i
never
felt
them
coming
,
i
won't
feel
them
stop
,
if
they
stop
.
and
tomorrow
i'll
be
exhausted
and
dehydrated
because
my
tear
ducts
don't
know
when
to
stop
...
020228
