my_neck
magicforest
cannot
stand
to
be
touched
by
anything
but
that
warm
thing
,
or
those
curling
things
,
or
those
soft
things
...in
a
melted
puckering
oblivion
I
swim
onwards
...I'm
waiting
for
someone
who
is
gone
...God,
I
was
wrong
this
whole
time
I
WAS
WRONG
I
WAS
WRONG
FUCK
undergoes revision
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...
pete
i
can't
stand
it
either
..
i
only
let
certain
people
touch
my
neck
,
and
there
hasn't
been
one
of
those
in
a
long
while
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...
mourninglight
I
miss
..wanting
my
neck
to
be
touched
.
I
think
..
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...
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i
hold
all
my
tension
in
my
neck
and
fear
i
will
have
the
big
lump
that
my
mother
has
if
i
don't
keep
on
top
of
it
.
i
keep
trying
to
get
him
to
rub
it
the
way
it
needs
rubbing ..
he
does
a
great
job
but
it's
not
quite
perfect
.
even
with
specific
instructions
(lovingly
spoken
) -
one
of
the
few
times
i've
ever
had
a
neck
rub
that
"
worked
"
is
from
my
mother
,
when
she's
not
too
tired
/worn
out
to
put
some
muscle
in
it
(mother's
gentle
touch
firmed
up
)
or
when
i
got
a
professional
massage
.
man
,
i
wish
i
could
afford
weekly massages.
they
are
a
true
luxury
in
my
world
.
p
.s.
i
work
on
my
mom's
when
i'm
not
too
tired
or
worn
out
.
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