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| kookaburra |
Someone else lives here now. For a couple years I think. Or maybe she was always here, and maybe you've always known a fake. But the time doesn't matter, because the person you've been asking for has left no forwarding address. Is this a surprise? It probably is. What you took as teen angst was me falling apart. Im sorry, did you expect a breakdown? Me wildly screaming? Obvious Cutting Scars? Or some other pathetic bid for attention? No, you didn't get that. None of it at all. Just a few less smiles than there used to be. But what you don't know was that I did open up-at least when I was stupid enough expect being taken seriously. But every time I tried to be serious you laughed it off. And I couldn't bring up the topic again without seeming pathetic and melodramatic. So I didn't bring it up, I just laughed along with you. Do you know how hard it is to laugh when you want to cry? When you want to scream? |
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