balm
unhinged
his
hands
on
me
his
contented
sighs
the
tone
of
his
voice
when
he
says
'i_love_you'
the
sheer
amount
of
people
that
tell
me
they
have
never
seen
him
this
happy
how
embarassed
he
gets
when
i
tell
him
how
great
he
is
that
i
can
tell
him
those
things
that
there
is
no
noose
on
my
tongue
my
heart
spills
out
of
my
mouth
and
i
grab
onto
him
i
need
him
close
to
me
always
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...
unhinged
(
i
think
always
changed
to
i
need
out
when
i
realized
that
the
bar
was
more
important
to
you
than
i
was
;
that
your
past
would
make
our
future
stupidly
difficult
.
that
without
realizing
where
or
when
,
my
leg
jiggles uncontrollably.
when
i
should
be
at
rest
,
i
tremble
like
a
leaf
)
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...
.
.
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...
In_Bloom
He
says
love
has
always
been
the
most
important
drive
in
his
life
Probably
because
he's
had
everything
else
He
says
he
wants
love
again
but
feels
cold
I
know
he's
a
liar
because
he
tries
so
well
to
warm
me
and
push
me
He
says
he
doesn't
know
what
he's
doing
I
tell
him
he's
gambling
just
like
me
that
this
time
won't
be
like
last
time
or
last
time
or
last
time
...
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