blather
the_ache_of_longing
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...
unhinged i have panic attacks when you do call
i have tears when you don't



because when you don't
i have one of those quiet_realizations
that once_again
i'm all alone



(but i am finally starting to believe
that i am
kinder
stronger
gentler
braver
than all your bullshit:

you_are_right
there are some things i just don't deserve
the part that makes me so sad
is that you don't deserve them either)
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