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i feel like i'm going insane.
like i can't decide what i should do.
though i have made my decision, and it's the right one,
the grass is always greener on the other side.
why am i happy and still questioning?
it seems to be a case of tasting_the_forbidden_fruit and wondering more.
i can't tell anyone, but the temptation to post it on here is overwhelming, especially now i know you might see this.
but i don't think that is healthy,
and there's nothing to change about this situation, as i don't think this would work out if i was single. more honestly, i have found the perfect guy for me yet i still find myself thinking about you.
i think you need to see new people, i do.
but it does make me question myself over and over.
know that if i had been single when i met you, i would have given it a shot.
we are on a similar wavelength. i don't know if you've even seen this, or will read it. i don't intend to mess your head up more, just put my words up where they are unlikely to be seen but can provide a bit of relief for my head.
i'm sorry for messing everything up,
and messing your head up.
you're a sweet and lovely guy and i wish you all the best with whoever it is you're seeing.
if you've read this, feel free to respond. this is an anonymous forum.
it's unlikely you will see this but i wanted to splurge these crazy thoughts out, and if you see them then maybe it will be comforting to know. or not. i don't know any more. i feel as though we're acting in some weird play around people who don't know what's going on, and we're pretending, and it's bothering me. i want to be friends with you but i feel like you don't want to or can't be anymore.
i know we discussed it but it still feels odd.
i do want to be friends and not this weird stasis.
i'd rather have you as a friend than not in my life at all but i wonder if that's my choice to make any more.
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