blather
she_was_a_smart_girl
sab she jsut made dumb decisions.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
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rage who got in way oover her head. it's so fucking classic it hurts. 061122
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. She thinks shes a smart girl. 061122
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unhinged the girl i used to be
got a 26 on the ACT
when she was 13
went to college for free
tuition
room board
books
graduated summa cum laude
yeah
she was smart
the girl i used to be

my heart overtaking all reason
to be with you
the pain you cause
le_petit_mort
then my brain beat me up
the girl i used to be
for letting you walk all over me
digging my hole
with a sharp stick

she was a smart girl
the girl i used to be
til you beat all the smart
right out of me
with your blunt addictions
and your long eyelashes
and your perfect jutting hipbones
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Ouroboros but not smart enough 070205
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sab and gettin
smarter
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unhinged . 150402
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f no, she'll
be fed up
by the time you
try to help her
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unhinged the heart has it's own logic not measured in the same units; there are no standardized tests. there are no classes to take on how to love.


'you care too much'
'you are book smart but you have no common sense'
'can't you just let it go?'


my heart has always reached out
my heart can't stand to be contained
my heart doesn't draw lines, boundaries


there are no tests for that
but maybe letting_go isn't so bad after all
all my trips on those existential_airlines
i finally learned a little better
how not to waste myself


contract
do you make me
contract


expand
i want to
expand

(emotional_intelligence)

blame_it_on_the_tetons
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