trust_your_instincts
mahayana
Always
trust
your
instincts
.
otherwise
known
as
why
Tuesday
was
a
rough
day
on
me
.
I
don't
know
how
many
times
I
tell
myself
to
"
trust
my
instincts
"
and
then
I
find
myself
in
situations
where
I
end
up
saying
... "
I
should
have
just
trusted
my
instincts
."
I
would
say
that
98%
of
the
time
my
instincts
are
spot
on
.
So
why
is
this
still
such
a
hard
lesson
for
me
to
learn
?
So
I've
been
in
a
bit
of
a
funk
since
this
past
Tuesday
.
I
parked
my
car
in
the
parking
lot
of
a
health
clinic
for
a
doctor
appointment.
As
I
was
approaching
the
cross
walk
I
noticed
an
elderly
lady
walking
across
the
street
about
midway
through
the
cross
walk
.
There
was
a
car
coming
down
the
road
quite
fast
.
So
I
decided
to
slow
down
my
pace
and
walk
behind
the
elderly
lady
so
that
the
car
would
have
to
stop
and
let
her
pass
.
After
making
it
across
the
street
I
noticed
that
there
was
an
ice
patch
.
I
turned
around
to
make
sure
that
the
lady
didn't
have
any
difficulties navigating
the
ice
. Thankfully
she
made
it
over
the
ice
.
As
I
was
walking
toward
the
front
entrance
something
inside
of
me
made
me
feel
like
I
should
offer
my
assistance
to
the
elderly
lady
.
Offer
her
my
arm
to
grab
a
hold
of
to
guide
her
safely
inside
of
the
clinic
.
I
stopped
and
turned
around
and
at
the
last
second
became
self
-conscious
about
offering
her
my
help
.
I
thought
...
what
if
she
is
offended
by
my
offer
or
worse
yet
what
if
I
am
rejected
in
a
harsh
way
?
This
isn't
usually
how
I
am
-
if
I
see
someone
in
help
I
naturally
without
thinking
offer
it
.
I
watched
her
walking
and
she
seemed
to
be
making
her
way
just
fine
.
A
little
bit
slow
but
seemingly
steady
.
So
I
continued
on
my
way
.
Feeling
a
sense
of
guilt
I
turned
around
once
inside
to
check
up
on
the
elderly
lady
.
And
at
the
same
exact
moment
that
I
was
turning
around
I
noticed
a
lady
in
a
wheel
chair
inside
the
clinic
exclaim
that
someone
was
hurt
outside
.
My
heart
sank
as
I
turn
around
in
what
seemed
like
slow
motion
and
saw
that
it
was
the
elderly
lady
that
I
contemplated
helping
.
I
was
frozen
in
horror
and
great
disappointment
in
myself
.
She
had
fallen
on
the
sidewalk
right
in
the
front
entrance
and
was
unable
to
get
herself
up
.
Four
medical personnel
rushed
from
inside
with
a
wheel
chair
to
help
her
to
her
feet
.
it
had
taken
a
few
minutes
for
them
to
get
her
up
.
I
made
myself
stand
there
and
watch
as
a
lesson
to
never
again
not
listen
to
my
gut
instincts
.
I
wanted
to
walk
up
to
her
and
profusely
apologize
for
not
looking
out
for
her
like
I
had
wanted
to
.
I
wanted
to
beg
her
for
her
forgiveness
in
not
looking
out
for
a
fellow
human
being
,
an
elder
,
someone
else's
loved
one
.
But
I
was
too
overwhelmed
in
shame
and
failure
.
For
the
rest
of
my
day
I
couldn't
stop
wondering
about
her
.
Was
she
OK
?
Did
she
sustain
more
injuries
because
I
allowed
my
low
-self-esteem
to
get
in
the
way
of
helping
someone
out
.
That
night
as
I
went
to
bed
I
was
laying
there
and
thinking
in
my
head
...
please
forgive
me
...
I'm
sorry
.
I
of
course
cried
as
I
fell
asleep
because
of
the
tremendous
guilt
that
I
could
have
done
something
to
help
her
out
,
but
I
didn't
trust
my
instincts
.
Always
trust
your
instincts
.
If
you
feel
unsafe
in
any
situation
heed
that
warning
.
If
you
feel
like
you
should
help
someone
out
-
don't
let
inner
self
negative
talk
convince
you
otherwise
.
If
it
is
safe
to
help
someone
out
then
please
do
so
.
If
you
feel
like
you
should
call
a
family
member
and
check
up
on
them
...
do
so
.
You
never
know
when
your
instincts
will
be
right
.
I
for
one
know
that
from
now
on
I
will
not
allow
myself
to
refuse
someone
help
when
my
soul
inside
has
informed
me
to
act
upon
it
.
I
can
live
through
any
form
of
rejection
,
but
can
I
live
through
what
I
had
to
go
through
this
past
Tuesday
ever
again
?
No
!
I
think
I
have
now
finally
learned
my
lesson
.
I
just
wish
that
it
didn't
have
to
be
this
way
.
But
I
will
not
let
this
experience
be
in
vain
.
I
am
taking
much
away
from
it
.
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...
.
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...
hsg
"..
last
second
became
self
-conscious
about
offering
her
my
help
.
I
thought
...
what
if
she
is
offended
by
my
offer
or
worse
yet
what
if
I
am
rejected
in
a
harsh
way
?"
If
she
was
to
take
offense
,
I'd
say
that's
not
to
be
prior
to
her
(
or
someone
like
her
)
could
have
needed
help
.
Looking
back
,
fear
of
rejection
has
caused
me
to
be
"
too
polite
"
and
has
made
others
feel
rejected
.
090219
...
random person
hsg
What
are
you
trying
to
say
?
"
If
she
was
to
take
offense
,
I'd
say
that's
not
to
be
prior
to
her
(
or
someone
like
her
)
could
have
needed
help
."
Maybe
it
is
just
me
,
but
I'm
not
getting
the
point
of
this
statement
.
Please
explain
.
090219
...
unhinged
no
thanks
.
my
instincts
get
me
hurt
more
often
than
not
.
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