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Becky Have been the worst in my entire life. Everything I've known and believed in has been taken away from me. Stolen. I love him.. and he lies to me.. I love him .. and he cheats on me.. I love him.. and he lies again and again and again. But I'm still with him.. because I love him.. and now.. he's in a rest house.. I have no emotion left.. these past two weeks have drained me of everything I've had. Yet, I know I'm going to lose more and more of me.. until there's nothing else to lose.. he'll take all of me before he leaves me. 010915
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vampers becky, i am truely sorry for everything. i dont think i can say it enough. 010915
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Aimee have been incredible. Almost feels like it's been a much longer time but yet they've flown... mmmmm I love you 010915
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Becky I know you're sorry Jess.. and knowing that helps. It really does. 010916
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blamethesky i'm lonely...i miss you. 010917
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Logan Have been the greatest of my life and I wish for them to become the rest of my life. I want to live with you before and put all else behind me. You and I...walking hand in hand through the forest of our lives with the sun and moon our loving witnesses and the stars our hopeful audience. 010917
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Casey Have been good and bad. I fell ok emotionally, except for the fact that I am terrible with girls and I don't seem comfortable around some of my friends.

Physically I feel as if I have been hit by a truck.

Someday
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ClairE Shyte.

Except that now I_love_nah.

And I_heart_blather.
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ClairE Have gone by much too quickly. It's all been in December.

I'll end these past two weeks with "Father Figure". Snazz!
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Jenna have been far too stressful

I wish I was better at this school thing

7 hours til my final

My essays are still not prepared, so I'm not allowed to sleep.

It sure would help my thought processes right now though.
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ilovepatsajak the weeks drag and the months fly 011213
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Jenna Oh so true. 011213
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ClairE holy_fucking_fuck 011214
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Casey I have felt a little better than I have in 4 years. Maybe it's just because I realizing finally that I get to leave here for a bit and people may acually notice I'm gone. 020221
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lady lunchbox you've been acting very strange. at first i thought you didn't want to be with me, but now i think you're scared because things are so perfect. i think being comfortable scares you, and i think being committed frightens you even more. maybe in the next two weeks i can make you see how happy i can make you, but only if you'll give me the chance. 020222
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blown cherry good luck lady lunchbox, hope all goes well :)


Saturday.


One week ago from this minute I was in your arms, in you bed, in your thoughts.
Then it all changed on Wednesday night.
You hate me now, wishing I was dead.
I am killed, but with death comes resurrection.
Don't change your mind.
Continue to hate me please,
because then I can forget you,
and return to oblivion,
having lived a brief but beautiful
and passionate existence.
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lady lunchbox thanks, blown cherry. things have worked out very very well. : )

meanwhile, i hope things were working out well for you, too.
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unpublished lyric machine these two weeks have shown me
i have some fucked up karma
these two weeks have shown me
the shit that i will become
the shit
the shit
the shit that i will become
but i already AM IT, you know
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blown cherry thanks lady lunchbox.
These last two weeks things have been starting to clear up for me,starting to work out.
Perhaps "well" isn't quite the way they are going,
but at least they are going some where.
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Syrope have been wasted in every aspect...not only did i sleep way too much, but when i was awake i did nothing. everything i had been so happy about and hopeful in has been flattened under a big huge rubber stamp with red ink that says "void, sucker!" 020612
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blown cherry have been crowded 021107
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blue star I've felt like puking all day long. 021108
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IWishICouldGoWithDavid Have been just as emotional, bittersweet, confusing, hopeful, trecherous, sad, tormented, wistful, cold, jealous, honest and tasty as the last two and a half months. So thank you, I guess. 021212
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jane only slept a full night twice. each other night disrupted by hands on my body, alcohol, other related factors. how sustainable is this?

we have plans in june...
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