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selective_mutism
arwyn I used to say whatever came to mind.
reactionary things.
silly things.
random things.
Things to get attention.

now I don't care as much.
I don't want to be seen.
I don't want to be heard as much.
self consciousness?
maybe.

I want to read and consider other people's words.
I want to listen. To absorb.
like a sponge.
then my brain gets in the way.
I raise my hand, so I don't interrupt.

then i forget my thought.
words words words
but never hearing anything
why speak if there's nothing to say.
because you're human.
attention is an addiction.
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