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whenever i think about how none of my family was ever as sweet as my old family, even though they are a hell of a lot nicer
morals were always something i exercised in order to please others (so for society i guess); nobody else seems to notice that, or at least none of my family
i'm annoyed because i'm special and plenty of people love me but love never seems to translate into very much when it comes to actions
so my family is entirely selfish, my therapist says i need to try to find people more like me (except happy)
but i think anymore everybody is entirely selfish, at least in this culture; after-all, its an overwhelming trend to seek to achieve utter self-sufficience rather than be happy with the interdependence of pretty much every single community of humans since forever
so i'm left unsatisfied and can think of nothing to do about it
who can change the world? and if somebody actually produced an answer i'd accuse them of cult mentality
but my therapist is also quick to point out that self defeat is one of the easiest thoughts for me to have
ho hum
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