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slow_night
jane the two of us in bed
under a quilt
in the darkness
despite the red light bulb i bought next door.

i went to see you yesterday
my feelings are as real as the rain on my eyelashes
my nose was slightly pink from the breeze outside
my eyes flashed green at you
it was dim
under the yellowed lights of the bar

i wrapped my first two fingers around the neck of the bottle of beer
sipped it out of the side of my mouth
& thought about the loss of innocence

that old guitar melody played out of the jukebox
like a woman weeping desperately into the night
i felt my insides melt warmly
and wanted to cry
my feelings are genuine

but i could not cry there

you told me it felt as if we had been laying together for ten years

we smoked a cigarette
and the smoke circled around our fingers
avoiding the crack in the window

you smoothed away the hair around my neck
kissed the side
right underneath my ear

i turned away
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