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jane i have nothing to write about. i've been drinking again & noticing things that no one else bothers to notice. winter just took pictures of all of us. rob & dylan in a bathtub with rob scrubbing dylan's back. i wore a white skirt & a white bra & laid in an upside down coffee table with candles around me. it was supposed to be my funeral. i had my right nipple exposed; i had to give myself a hickey for some reason. then dylan & i sat in the upside down coffee table with cocktails in our hands & pretended as if we were in a boat on our way to america. i was self conscious of course, especially because rob is so judgmental & i knew he was looking at my body & just judging it. people like that shouldn't be allowed at half-naked photo shoots. also on the way back they were talking about some girl named larissa or something & how perfect her body is. like i couldn't be any more self conscious. i mean i dont usually care; winter has taken photos of me topless playing guitar but you know with judgmental people around other consciousnesses come about. i'm sorry. i'm sorry because i've been drinking & i just feel like writing but i don't really have anything to write about so i just decided to come here to write because i know this is safe. i wish blather was what it used to be. i'm not going to get into it because it will hust be a debate. lets just leave it at the photo shoot. 040401
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phil I can paint a million portraits.
Tackling all things running around in my mind.
With photography I get to enjoy other people, rather than sit around. I can finally just go out get some photos taken or some video, and then go work for hours for a finished result to show, for the person who spent 20 minutes playing around to want to do it again.
I need other artforms but nature provides so much in itself for you too find, as long as you can look at it the right way.
Something from nothing.
I like the detail without all the flattery. (see THX 1138)
I've been soaked in images of fake boobs for too long.
Can't stand how fake pictures look, bad fake, I mean the most basic things such as the difference! between a picture used for printing and one meant for a monitor, or getting depth and something explicit in your basic photograph.
It's horrifying every time I look through a bad reel, if I just would have stopped and thought how it looked before I shot.

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