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unable_to_fix_the_broken_fence
frAnk i came home and found you knee deep in robin_hill snow, trying to mend the electric fence that django the thorobred/clydesdale broke through, in search of grass. it was the third day in a row that it happened.

"what are YOU doing here?" you asked, as if i was an escaped circus freak.

i worked beside you in the 2 degree weather. we traded attitudes and curses, and tools. "give me the fucking pliers!" "why?" "because i said so."

we hooked it back up. in the morning he was out again.

and the fence that keeps our friendship together is also broken and for now the affection has escaped.
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frAnk today django is in. i guess the fence is fixed for now. but the horse that was named friendship is still missing.

i train myself not to care and that is so much harder than apologizing.

being stubborn is like the devil putting his hands over my eyes. i am blind to the beauty of saying that i'm sorry.
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megan can't keep it all in if you tried 070301
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megan fences make the best friends, or so it was said

i'm beginning to wonder... is it the fence that holds the friendship or the friendship that holds the fence

enter. do not be afraid. do not hold back.
just fucking be yourself for once.
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unhinged joseph_and_i 070621
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ho ho oh is that another party or something ? 070622
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unhinged when he pays for my food and drinks, that sadly enough makes it easier. also, i think i could actually just be friends with him now. a myriad of circumstances have dissolved my in_love for him. 070727