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Jennifer Bethke
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There's something that I've been wanting to tell you for a while now, but every time I try to tell you I forget everything I was gonna say, so that's why I'm telling you in a letter; that way, I can't forget what I was gonna say. I've learned that guys make the best friends. You're one of my best friends and it feels like I could tell you almost anything...well, anything except for the way I feel about you; I always seem to leave that part out of the conversation. The last thing I want to do is something that would risk the great friendship that we have, but the things we regret most in life are the risks we don't take, so I'm gonna take that risk. I wish I had the perfect words to tell you this, but I don't, so I'm just gonna try my hardest to figure out how to say this.
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Jennifer Bethke
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I love how we're such close friends, but sometimes when I look at you, friendship isn't all that I see. I didn't realize that I could like you so much. I never meant to feel this way, but I can't help it. This feeling I get when I'm with you -- I don't know how to describe it, but I do know that I don't want it to end. It's like seeing you brings a smile to my face and hearing your voice gives me butterflies in my stomach. When I look at you, I find myself falling deeper and deeper for you. I could be having the worst day, but when I see you walk down the hall and smile, somehow my day wouldn't seem so bad after all.
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Jennifer Bethke
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Why is it that you're one of my best friends, but I still get that feeling in my stomach when I see you? It's kind of hard for me to pretend that things are the same as they were when, every day, my feelings for you get stronger and stronger. It's also getting kind of weird. I mean, I used to be able to say anything or do anything around you, but now sometimes I just avoid you for fear of falling for you more than I already have. I don't know when this feeling started, but I do know that it's been going on a while now. Maybe someday I'll understand what it's like to hold your hand, but until that day comes all I can do is silently wonder why I had to fall for my best friend.
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Jennifer Bethke
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I kind of wish I didn't feel this way, because we're really close friends. I shouldn't feel this way about you, but I do and I don't know what I'm supposed to do about it.
That's why I'm writing this letter. I need to know what you want. If you don't want anything more than friendship, just tell me and I'll understand, and it can go back to the way it was before, but if you think you feel something more than friendship too, maybe we could give it a try, and if it doesn't work out we could go back to the way it is now. So, when this day comes to an end, think of me as your friend, but then wonder if we could be more than just that. Being just friends with you is hard to image since I like you so much, but I can't image not even having you as a friend. I guess I'm just another girl who has fallen for you. So, where do I go from here? That's what I need you to tell me. I can deal with us being just friends and I can deal with us being more; it's deciding which one we have that's the hard part.
To read more goto http://www.my-journal.com and lookup journaler Rabenfuchs
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:)
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I think that is all that can be said....
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Kevin Rains
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i know i am not the kevin you are talking about - different last names and all - that is the coolest thing I ever read. i wish my girlfried would write stuff like that for me.
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Sarah
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Kevin sounds like an idiot for not telling the difference between friendship and more. Typically idiotic male who needs to be hit upside the head in order to recognize the love that is right in front of him. You should give up on him girl and go look for someone who will notice and appreciate you.
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The REAL Jennifer Bethke
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I did not post this message. I must admit that, yes I did origianlly write the letter, and yes every word of it is true to this very day... but this letter was taken from my computer and posted here by someone (I know who you are) I know to get back at me. They took my private letter and posted on the internet for all to see and used my name and an old e-mail. People are scum, especially when they are friends you thought you could trust.
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