what_i_should_be_what_i_am
girl_jane
I
feel
like
such
a
whimp-
Like
an
ungly
little
girl
who's
lost
her
mother
in
a
grocery
store
.
she
freezes
in
the
middle
of
the
aisle
and
makes
a
puddle
with
her
tears
on
the
cold
,
fake
stone
floor
.
Frantic
and
alone
-
Her
cry
starts
as
a
whimper
-
then
the
blood
in
her
body
starts
to
storm
and
she
screams
her
body
shakes
the
front
of
her
dress
is
drenched
She's
defeated
.
She
sits
in
her
cold
,
hard
,
salty
puddle
.
Fucking
weak
and
pathetic
I
am
.
I
am
*
not
*
a
little
girl
.
I
am
a
young
woman
-
A
young
woman
who's
been
reduced
to
this
state
by
winter's
crushing
cold
and
shamed
by
trudging
barefoot
through
snow
.
I
should
be
a
woman
-
wearing
a
gown
of
summer's
sun
and
fireflies
in
my
hair
-decorated
by
jewelry
made
of
diamond
rain
.
What
I
should
be
-
What
I
am
...
Ha
.
040119
...
girl_jane
I
need
break
it
into
lines
and
stanzas
as
well
.
But
feelings
aren't
broken
up
like
poems
-they
just
muddle
together
into
a
slushy,
sloppy
,
icky
mess
.
040119
...
stork daddy
worthwhile
....and...eh
040119
...
s
For
yourentir
life
you
will
feel
like
this
lost
girl
when
deep
inside
you
have
the
passion
of
a
women
and
yet
cant
face
it
because
the
fear
of
the
past
restricts
your
choices
for
the
future
.
040206
...
birdmad
eep
!
here's
a
scary
meditation
.
i
don't
have
a
good
answer
for
this
one
.
040206
...
x
happy
,
unhappy
040206
