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Bespeckled
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I never wanted to be back here again
Back nursing heartache
feeling my thoughts slide cold down my throat like mercury into my stomach.
Tears perpetually welled up behind my eyelids, waiting only to hear your name to rush
"What a baby!" I think, and I shake my head.
Straighten up.
Blink the tears away.
Get back to work.
It's become too familiar a feeling, and
I think it would be better to just let myself
be jaded,
tough,
unfeeling,
compartmentalizing,
avoiding
LIKE YOU.
But instead I want to SCREAM,
I want to run 5,000 miles until my legs fall off,
I want to throw a vase through a glass window,
burn and destroy
because I can't
take it.
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unhinged
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gentleness can transform any emotion into a soap bubble pushed away by the wind of the breath
somebody once told me i was inherently good; that even when i felt like shit, i was inherently good. that when i sat on my cushion and tears rolled down my face, even then i was good.
i accept the way i feel today
this_too_shall_pass
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unhinged
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a feeling bubble pushed away with the feather of my basic_goodness
simply labeled 'feeling'
no_judgements
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