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| amy nada |
what wrong was wrought? i either have a developmental problem or a karmic one... enough personal "work" and it won't be both. i'd like to say i'm not being too idealistic but maybe i am... i can't see that too well... always do your best, right? i do tend to get just rewards -- but nothing that makes my external situation seem like it's getting any better... which gives me cause for despair and feeds my death wish etc. i have a wish that i had grown up faster... can't be granted... more like a regret.... bottom lining now: with money, i'll be able to expand my horizons for better or for worse, but, in another respect, what am i going to do without love? have trust, have faith, have hope... those are the only answers. let go and step up a stair when i'm able... |
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