blather
finding_nothing_else
ashmanzhou looking deep inside of me
deep deep down
far into the depths
and then some
searching through memories
intact and shattered too
fasts balled eyes red
in my corner straining
to find inflection
all i find is failure
wrong decisions
messed up thinking
my judgement flawed unable to see
have i ever changed
life leeches out of me
all i see
is distracted thoughts
i know life happened i saw it then
but i see it no more
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