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Today I helped a woman who shouted obscenities at me find a fire bowl. I fucked up my back while putting a dresser on hold for a man that never showed up. Someone pulled into my front yard and peed in the neighbor's yard while I was obscured by some foliage smoking a cigarette. My new mascara wound up all over every surface in the bathroom...I guess Wren was 'coloring' while she was at home with her dad. I reflected on how I agonized over whether or not I should purchase this mascara--the frivolity of it, the selfishness of spending $5 on myself. So the universe does not want me to be happy today, I ran out of drinking water and screwed up an icing recipe (how does one even DO that?) and used the wrong tone with too many people too many times... But ok, maybe I have tomorrow. I'll fill out my fafsa, really this time, really I will I will and I will be so much better and smarter when I am older. The next time I'm older. It will be hard in a different way.
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