blather
shes_insane
sab shes insane
and has a saintly, roll her eyes at heaven attitude
a sighing, look at the things i have to put up with martyr attitude
shes insane
and she sees the world through her insanity
shes insane and in pain
and still lashing out, no matter how reasonable she makes her voice.

shes insane
and in pain


and yet still, this time
she has a point.

and conseqentially
i feel like shit.
this time around
her insanity has landed on a Truth
[a raving beast alighting on my chessboard]
and now i have to stop
and admit
that yeah, ok, this one is real.


fuckit
i hate this
and i hate that i have found
another thing to hate.

funny how self hate is the sharpest kind
funny how i can bleed
from my own words
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