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_fragile_
so fucking lost fragile world.
this place
this life
is glass
sugar glass
sticky and so fragile

and i cling to
substitutes unsuitable
and i fall apart
over and over
and each time
i pick myself up
i think i put myself back together
a little more wrongly.

i am loosing myself
in who i am becoming
or i am
who i always was

i dont know
which option frightens me more
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unhinged so that every time you fall
you fall a little more
completely
things are fragile right now
like a bird that flys not quite
straight into the window
and can still walk away
one wing hanging at a grotesque angle
hopping
i have found the meaning behind the cliche
'take life one day at a time'
because some days are definitely worse than others
but the common trend throughout seems to be that there isn't much point to living
i can't help you
i can't help him
i can't help them
i can't help myself
and she's taking pills that make her happy
and i want to take them too
but something stops me from going to the doctor
i don't want to live to be sad
i don't want to be sad to live
but i'm trapped in that direction
hoping that this time
i can find something to pull me back out
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~gez~ you look so fragile
so easy to break
so i feel i must protect you
forver more
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three words all_shall_perish
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under_the_hat When I was younger
I would look to my mother's hands
And I would see the viens
That stood stark against her skin.
I look to my hands
On the bus, cold night and rain
Tapping gently
And I see the viens
That have come with age.
They no longer feel like a symbol
Of strength to me
Rather I see how pale
How thin
Transparent I am
These distinguished hands
Working
Like my mother's.
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