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I'm broken and alone, with no one to turn to. I'm shattered and one of the only things that makes me happy is gone. Gone. Its over, and I'm left with what I deserve, or do I deserve to be lower than I am right now. Do i not even deserve to be where I am because I deserve far worse. Bad times bring about realizations and lessons, well I've learned one that I'll never forget. Everything in me wants to fix everything, but how can I when the only way how is to go back to the beginning. Do i make sure that this doesn't happen in future relationships, well I could, but right now there is no future relationships. Your the only one I want. Have I been completely blind to everything, or was I being delusional to the way that things really were?
Thank you for being here for me for so long, thanx for giving me everything you have, thanx for showing me that some people can be trusted, and sometimes you have to let go of your fears to find out how far you can really go. Thanks for showing me that not everyone is out to hurt me, for making me realize things. Thank you for not giving up on me after all this time. Thank you for all the chances that you've given me, even though we both probably agree that I didn't deserve them. Thanks for looking out for me and being concerned about me. Thanks for swalling the pain just so you could follow your heart and actually be true to yourself. Thanks for loving me when I thought it was no longer possible. Thanks for telling me how you feel and letting me inside. Thanks for allowing yourself to get close to me after I hurt you. Thank you for listening to me when you probably had better things to do. Than you for being yourself and telling me when things were wrong. Thanks for letting me know how you feel. Thanks for holding nothing back and giving it your all.
I have so much to be thankful for and so much to look back on and smile.
Can you say the same?...or does all the bad things that have happened outweigh the good.
Whatever happens from here on out, just know that I'll always love and care about you, that I want you to do whats best for you, without considering how it would affect me. I would say that I'm sorry, but I think its a little too late for that. thanks for giving me things that I've never dreamed of...and I wish you could say the same.
I will always, no matter what, even if u ripped me apart inside and stomped all over me a million times, I would still love you.
Thanks for showing me how it really feels to be happy...I appreciate everything that you've given to me, I just hope that you know that.
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