blather
she_noticed_her_smiling_then
sab and so she hugged her
and, feeling sad, climbed into the car
and drove away

feeling down, she reached for a random tape
and stuck it in the player

and the sounds of jello screaming
filled the car


and with that, she perked up


she remembered a time, 11 years ago
when a boy that she liked
gave her this tape
gave her this music
gifted her with jello
and this many years on
she still listens
to the thrid generation
of his gift.


a lot of the time, its jsut
no means no and lard
but occasionally
it reminds her
of a gentle, shy boy
with appaling tatse in beer
and excellent taste in music
and the gift of sharing obscure films
with the girl she was


the girl she is.

and shes ok
with the girl she is
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djStar i'm a shy girl with an "appalling" taste in beer and an excellent taste in music and film. i've never been watched so closely before by any one of my female lovers... she stares at me wide-eyed and wondering. this startles and at the same time, flatters me. i feel so loved and wanted... especially when in the corner of my eye, i notice her smiling. 040923
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pjontoast i miss the smile
but i still see it
i have the proof
that we were happy
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batman oh You,
I love that you found me here
in this anonymous place
secret kisses in the breakroom
how I miss your face
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