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unknown I walk in
I see you
I watch you
I scan you
I wait for you
I tickle you
I tease you
I search you
I breathe you
I talk

I smile
I touch your hair
You are the one
You are the one
Who did this to me
You are my own
I show you
I feel you
I ask you
I don't ask

I don't wait
I won't ask you
I can't tell you
I lie
I am crying hard
There was blood
No one told me
No one knew
My mother knows
I forget your name

I don't think
I bury my head
I bury your head
I bury you
My fever
My skin
I cannot breathe
I cannot eat
I cannot walk
I am losing time

I am losing ground
I cannot stand it
I cry
I cry out
I bite
I bite your lip
I breathe you breath
I pulse
I pray aloud

I smell you on my skin
I say the word
I say your name
I cover you
I shelter you
I run from you
I sleep beside you
I smell you
On my clothes
I keep your clothes
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credit (Jenny Holzer) 090519
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evidence http://www.rioo.net/zeroboard/data/outerspace/jenny_holzer2.jpg 090519
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hsg until_you_become_that_person 090520
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minnesota_chris I regularly have this to-do list:

Get something to eat
Figure out what to do with my life


this has been my to-do list for most of the past 20 years
090520
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unhinged i don't know how to say i_love_you anymore. it always ends up thrown back in my face. what_we_meant_to_each_other reduced to what_you_meant_to_me ; i ache to fall in_love with someone who is in_love with me. 090520