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re_alisma starting with this last Pisces lifetime, i think i have about as many lives as i've made letters in the title.... on the same theme. because that's how long i think i might be on this same topic of science and art and whatever else i've thrown in there. i don't necessarily believe that everybody i meet is on the same train track, either.

it's just that it's the nature of the last of the Pisces age lifetimes to consider the whole program at once. also, this is only_the_beginning of the project, and thus the beginner's mind is inherent to the process even though Pisces takes such a wide intuitive-knowledge perspective.

also there's no way in hell that i'd be married to the same person for all 19 lifetimes, so i find it perfectly natural to be a little bit uncommitted, at least in my younger years (of this one) i don't blame myself for being single, really.

deep down, and very selfishly, i don't necessarily track with the Erikson theories of social development, such as intimacy vs. isolation. these sorts of theories, i think, have nothing to do with the deep-down parts of us, and it might be important to make the distinction, sometimes. we're all the same, deep down, but we might not all be tracking similarly due to our distinctivity and uniqueness as far as life goals and purpose goes, when it is adequately addressed.

some people are weirder than others, though, and we all should really do our best not to oppress each other when there is a difference. sometimes that means a weird person has to tone it down to communicate with others, and a less weird person shouldn't assume that much of what comforts them applies to everybody and is therefore descriptive of what's valuable and good. i mean we have the ten commandments... they should be "good enough".... (although i can't say that i can even list them!)

so anyway, the point is that some people are not midway to anything. they are at the very beginning. and some are in the middle and they might be feeling very stymied. group B can sometimes think that group A's methods, ways, means, etc. are dumb, getting in the way of real progress, and THEREFORE EVIL (people often describe evil as lesser energy bringing higher energy down). what group B needs to do is learn to recognize where group A is group A's own story.

that is all. see: space program, schmace program. it could or could not be an important thing. also, linear lifetimes could or could not be, it's hard to tell until you really become self-aware and decisive or if you are considering another person, you have quite a lot of clearance with them, or whatever. it would be a lot to assume.

but i am charged up for the whole dang thing. the caveat is that maybe i'm feeling bored and short-changed with my life as it is... with too much imagination... so maybe i'm being a troublemaker. i WAS born in the mid seventies, which is, in some respects, punkland.
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