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re_alisma actually i'm not. the assumption only belies your a) preconceptions about me and b) your vaguely thought-out fears and c) your projections of how you'd feel if you were in my place?

all these things have 0.0 relevance to me. i always am doing the best i can, and this grounds me quite solidly in a non-suicidal category.

so, yeah, please. things are better, and not worse, by any stretch of the imagination.
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re_alisma sorry to be all confrontational and all, but, seriously, who does this erroneous thought really serve?

Although, I CAN see, you might, as an excuse for your dumbness, mix these things up, if you have never been okay with being unhappy, or never had life turn into something really quite challenging....

once, when I was about 22 or so, an ex-boyfriend asked me if I was happy, and it caught me off-guard, because I really had never given it thought. It's never been the meat, or whatever, of the story.

But as I get older, and I'm more satisfied with the life already lived, I'm more amenable to life being more polarizably on the side of happy. There's less I gotta bear down and do, or it's all past me now, and I can, more efficiently this time, do whatever it is I can think of to do.

(if I win the lottery)
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