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damn you...fucking damn you for making me feel about you....guess that wasn't productive. all the scarey shit.
You don't want to know about this, I gave away an object to someone who might appreciate it better. they refused....and i was confused. this was a free thing and i offered it freely....it was an object to me. it didn't have value to me, and yet this person didn't have acceptance.
i don 't understand why if you try to be good that people reject it.
fuck it.
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As a child I was coached to believe if you love, if you do "good" then good will come to you and keep you from harm. I convinced myself of this because for awhile it worked but I was just a child.
How frightening to learn, just when you need affirmation and deliverance the most that jealous people love to scratch and dig out the hidden love so they watch it gasp and wither under intense wonder and passion. Preparation and care, those things are important too.
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i will take that to heart In_Bloom
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but you may prepare for every eventuality, trying to give someone a gift, something that you really didn't need, but would make their world better....
i was trying to show that they could have this thing, which i didn't want but they did. Give it to them without question.
Maybe I'll give away more things just to make a test of who accepts and who denies. There is a lesson here.
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Do you speak of altruism?
I like the concept and I love the feeling of giving and not wanting because it feels so nice but then some sprite whispers their two cents into my ear I could have some of that elation too.
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yes i do in_bloom, gifts are what i wish to make others feel good.
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Everything that I have I would give to those that need or want it.
Everything.
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but in answer to your question...
altruism....i really didn't think of that. my thoughts were more of bringing happiness to others. When it comes down to it I don't realize what or why people chose their containment, i have decided that i should help.
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In_Bloom
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Your words in this place, D, they snag me now and then to slow up, pace and think.
The gamut of what you share here has been of value to me since I jumped in.
Thank you. I know I'm not alone in saying this.
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my heart, my fingers, my love.
they are all yours.
as they are,
they are all yours.
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I like this.
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