blather
unchecked_hate
unhinged 'left unchecked, the hatred for radical islam will transform itself into a hatred for muslims. the hatred for undocumented workers will become a hatred for mexicans and central americans. the hatred for those not defined by this largely white movement as american patriots will become a hatred for african americans. the hatred for liberals will morph into a hatred for all democratic institutions, from universities to government agencies to the press.' - chris hedges

this was written in 2015. in 2017 it is largely the story of the america the republican party has wrought. unchecked hate has brought a population of ignorant haters that are literally cheering on the dismantling of any small semblance of freedom we had left. because the christian_fascists really and truly believe that if the rest of us don't agree with them we can rot in hell while they ascend to paradise. and yet they can't see their connection to all radical islamic terrorists...i vacillate between rage and trembling fear. there is no convincing people that believe lies and myths even in the face of irrefutable facts.

teetering
trembling
cowering

i distract myself like everything is normal
the ball in my stomach grows
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