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phil A slow pulse travels through canyons of adreneline.

An eyeball reflecting emergency text in midnight emotions.

Pillow cases stapled in the shadows of fences.

The abscent leaves, the sun and blowing,
tasteless and fruitless.

Silent, sensible, and self-centered a million flaws.

Silvery sand, bittersweet, and jasmine
alibis behind his watery eyes.

Red flesh, soft hair, and the hues of life lies ebony spiders.

Dried and hard as a seedy smile
of romantic pain.
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nom what is wrong with me? 070221
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nom why_am_i_sad? 070221
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c. bukowski "bone-dead sorrows
like starfish washed ashore."
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caresscoffee i almost always feel sad and i don't even know why 070222
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fix i just want to hear the mucic and see the colours
what wrong with that ?
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unhinged i'm pretty sure it's just my hormones though 070223
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f headaches... really bad ones, two week ones
sometimes couldn't even see.. spots in eyes..
maybe horemones ?
went away, thank gog.
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pSyche these months have me so down.
I just sleep
and sleep
and my friends
and my mother
must think i'm really lazy
but i just sleep
because i feel so sad

I think this is the kind of weariness that won't go away.
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. mmmm...

i know that.. it's like feeling dead.

maybe tomorrow might change?

ask gog.
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nom it's just that i get so attached 070223
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f And so this love
that somehow in the wasteground brazier of now
burns so bright
will one day flicker and hiss
as the raindrops of time
fall upon us in the cooling night.

And so if these small times
are all we'll ever have,
this Now at least is blessed.


We may never sail that houseboat,
or ride across the desert
in a hired car,
and I must learn to cherish you
not for what i want you to be
but for what you are.

:_(
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nom happy_and_sad 070226
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yesno maybe happy in my thoughts and feelings

sad to be misunderstood
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