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stolen_diary
yummychuckle and you read my thoughts
because thats all I had left.
and you told me "i know you hate me"
when i don't hate you and never
wrote or said i did.
but you say that to me so you can hear
that I love you despite the awful things
you do to me.
just so you can feel not so bad.
and you have no consideration
and i have no words
and my poem is awkward dumb pointless
because you stole my words from me. im so upset that i cant even write anything pretty. its just messy like me. yous tole from the the only thing i had left
because friends are not constant
you are not constant
music is not my own
but my words were...
and now im stuck. it hurts so fucking bad. i thought i could trust my own mom.
and it sounds like im being dramatic.

maybe i am. still doesnt change the fact that i feel like this and i'm leaving. if i run out of places to stay, which i will soon, i will be on the street downtown. beach. and i wont go to school because i wont have a way. i wont have money.

i wont have anything. i dont have anything. i dont have words. i dont know what to say its all the same.

and the only thing that kept me wanting to wake up this morning is my EMAIL. i thought a few people mightve written me. but they didnt because they have no obligation to. and
i
dont
know
what
to
do.
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yellow 5 i'd like to chain my diary to a bus stop bench in another town. i leave no explanation. 020418
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Daria Good idea,
that would quite confuse people,
and while their trying to figure out what ia all means
You could take over the world.
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insect life is all around make copies and leave them chained everywhere, airport benches, bus tops, waiting rooms 020419
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stork daddy thus are legends started 020419
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stork daddy but the fbi might confescate mine 020419
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insect life is all around yeh. that's the idea 020419
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Daria Confused FBI? 020423
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girl_jane You didn't have to sneak it to read. You could have just asked. I would have had no problem letting you read it. All my real secrets are in my head anyway. Not on any paper. And you can't steal my mind to read... 020423
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good people i can! -takes jane's mind and puts it in his pocket- hehe, whatcha gonna do now?!?
got yer brain!
got yer brain!
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yummyC yellow 5's idea has been stuck in my head since it has been posted. I will do this someday. make a copy of my journal and laminate it, and then chain it to a bench somewhere busy.
once i had a dream that there was this library full of journals people had donated anonymously, and i started reading silent bobs.
mine was somewhere in there, but my name wasnt in it. such an interesting idea
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User24 and indeed you did. 030617
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shivers my freind leaves hers on her bed, everyone has read it, i used to keep one. not nemore, i keep my feeling where they belong 030617
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User24 I used to write a diary in code. 030618