| even_self_distruction_doesnt_help_today | ||
| so fucking lost |
and thus i did run out of options. no more methods, tired and true or otherwise, to contain these feelings. its not allivation its not stress reduction and today its not even helping. |
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| josie |
Been burning out. Night welds into day and there's a constant mirage of earthquakes in supermarkets during these waking hours. Endless configuration of what's actually happening instead of indulging in the most satisfying delight right now.. sleep. Can't seem to bring myself to be in that house, sleeping there for this many months makes me feel like i should belong where i actually don't. I'm finding comfort in chilli and base, and leathal doses of caffiene and nicotine. |
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| josie | my head is riddled with infant grapes and their pungent day-after stench. | 020529 |