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I have this friend -
at least that's the easiest word -
and she smiles big daylight
At every deep shadow.
and she carefully eats her food
with a poke poke
and an mmmm.
Masticating, one might say.
Indeed, one might.
She sings and hums when driving
and has a different sound for
every situation.
And she reacts so fluidly
and humanly
and passionately
and beautifully
to everything.
She can stall a disaster day
with some little inside joke
that usually just started
as gibberish.
As meaningless dribble
that only we understand.
And as she teases me
I can't help but laugh
because - let's face it -
it's probably true.
I have this friend -
at least that's what
she's supposed to be -
and she has these rolling meadow eyes.
Piercing, but in a way I like
and an open mind
that's filled with amazing thoughts.
And she says wise things
in a way I wish I could.
And she's an amazing person
in a way I could only hope to be.
I have this friend
who knows me better than any other
and when she hugged me
she stood up on her tip toes
and I held on to her tightly
and just felt her breathing.
and when she looked up at me
and flashed a smile
when she caught me watching
I made no attempt to hide it.
And for all this
and those little things between
just the two of us
that I will not write here
because they are not for you,
for all this
I love her.
And need her like air.
We're on the phone again,
on & off when we can be.
It'd been over a year.
"I miss you,"
I tell her.
"I miss you,"
she says back
and I don't know if she
doesn't understand
or
just doesn't want to believe
that I don't mean it
as a friend.
I never have.
Not when we were together.
And not now.
I have this friend
who smiles like the rain
and laughs like a sunrise
and sleeps so beautifully.
And I miss her so terribly.
And I will never be able
to consider her
only
a friend.
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