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User24 hmm. it feels much better.

no that's a lie.

it feels pretty much the same, except I don't get high anymore. it wasn't a life changing event to start and it wasn't a life changing event to stop. though both events have changed my life.

I'll start again.

hmm. it feels much better.

no that's a lie.

Although both starting and stopping were significant experiences, I wouldn't class either as being drastically out of normal exsistence.

that's a bit better.

I've not smoked weed for abour 2 months now. it's not a big deal. I'll have some at Yule (or thereabouts).

Looking back, I really did love the stuff, but it's amazing how little difference it makes. just goes to show. the greatest drug is life.

I'm gonna have a coffee and a cigarette now. ;-)
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hsg life is also the greatest sobriety. 081013
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In_Bloom I can give up smoking and alcohol and drugs and all but minimal food and casual sex but... I can't give up whatever wracks my body from the inside out, near tears to reach out and want to be reached for in return. 081014